This was my second convention in attendance, and my last as an undergraduate student. There is an opportunity to join their alumni chapter for a minimal fee and continue to participate in the conventions further. What I really really love about this opportunity is that I can participate from virtually anywhere. (Keeping in mind of the Teach For America opportunity that I am currently pursuing.)
As much I enjoyed getting up in front of strangers to present my work, I couldn't help become extremely anxious in close proximity of my peers. On Saturday nite, at the gala dinner, I literally had a break down. I couldn't breathe, and could barely keep myself from breaking out in tears. I know I probably totally over reacted, but still I am human with emotions. I guess I am realizing how much older I am from my school peers. I have my own life, which at times seems to float above everyone else. It just really gets to me sometimes because I have tried so hard, maybe too hard to appeal to these people in order to feel connected within the community at school.
Although I really enjoyed my time, I felt even more disconnected. I was fortunate enough to room with two great people, in which I will be able to keep in contact with them post-graduation.
With life rapidly moving and changing before my eyes, I have just been feeling like I'm barely getting by.